Qโ€™s Iโ€™m Asking Myself Today

Sunrise Reflection 2

early 2019 | LA, CA | in some bathroomโ€Šโ€”โ€Ši believe in the Fairfaxย District

my minds are lightly stormy, and kinda unsure
my bodyโ€™s active withย aches

the day is young
and my soul leaps, leaping, atโ€Šโ€”โ€Ši guessโ€Šโ€”โ€Šnothing-
ness.

i feelย stuck.

activity can cure much.
writing is such.
running can (but my running shoes have been trashed).
walkingโ€™s great. i do that enough.
just stayingย active,

might cause (Or create!) soreness.
that isย growth.

what do (u) know?
isnโ€™t the โ€œcorrectโ€™ answerโ€Šโ€”โ€Šnothing
and everything? because everthing
is changing. everything is. nothing isโ€Šโ€”โ€Šas?โ€Šโ€”โ€Ševerything?

the universe is โ€˜alwaysโ€™ for you.
am i for me?
how can i be better forย me?

where am i lacking?
how can i cross the bridges?
how can i integrate my lackings
with myย goodies?

how can i declutter to expand?
how can i simplify, minimalize to flourish?
why donโ€™t i grow in areas i struggle in?
why not? whyย not?

what would happen if i became, become more relatable? relational? connective?
what would happen if i wrote with many styles?
how can i become the most diverse and multifarious i can be and become?
how honest am i withย myself?

why am i scared of what iโ€™m scared? why am i scared of this and that?
furthermore, when i feel powerless, what would happen if i changed my paradigm?

what would happen when i learn myself better?
why can i be silent?
where, in what areas, am i not trying?
what couldnโ€™t fuck with myย head?

i couldย on.

thanks.


Qโ€™s Iโ€™m Asking Myself Today was originally published in Philosophies, Psychologies, Poetries, Spiritualities on Medium, where people are continuing the conversation by highlighting and responding to this story.

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